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It’s been awhile since I last posted here.
I could blame it on the holidays. I could blame it on my busy work life. I could probably even blame it on feeling unmotivated.
I could blame it on some or all of those things and I wouldn’t really be lying.
However, if I’m truly being honest with myself, I’ve been contemplating where I go from here. What am I really passionate about. What motivates me to sit down and write but also to live in the real world beyond the blogosphere.
I recently celebrated my 26th birthday. I’m usually the kind of person who celebrates a birthday week and really takes advantage of a time dedicated to me. However, this year was different. I dealt with a death just a few days before. I found myself stuck in an airport on business on my actual birthday. And yet, I can’t complain at all because when the day came to celebrate, Bill was the most amazing husband I could ask for and planned a gathering of some of my closest friends for a night of good food, good drinks and great laughter.
Something about this year left me really thinking through what I should be working toward as I grow older. Twenty-six is far from a landmark age but for the first time I felt like I was in a place that I need to be truly thinking about, and planning for, the future.
In the next few years, I want to grow our family. I want to be in a place where I feel ready to take that step. For me, that means being healthy, being happy and being secure enough to care for another human being.
I don’t like to set New Year’s resolutions, but I do feel like I need to put this list to digital paper so that I can remind myself of where I want to be in the years to come.
- I want to be healthy. This doesn’t mean losing five pounds or hitting the gym daily. It means feeling content with my body, my mind and my soul. It means treating my body with respect, taking care of my mental self and spending more time reflecting and praying.
- I want to surround myself with others who are healthy. Happiness begets happiness.
- I want to create an environment that is the best it can be for myself and others. I want to continue reduce the physical toxins in my life. We don’t each much processed foods but there’s always room for improvement. I want to learn about how to eat more sustainably through my own gardening, canning and preserving. I want to reduce the toxins I take into my body through beauty products and personal care.
I want to be healthy and surround myself with others and an environment that is healthy. I want a lot – I know. This is why I haven’t been writing here. Just typing these words is a bit terrifying and, yet, liberating.
I don’t plan to change the focus of this blog, but you may see more of my personality and hopes and dreams come through. You may see insight into the adventure I’m on. You may see more of me.